When I was young, I always thought that my friends that time will be my best friends forever. We had encountered a lot of trials together. Together we laugh, cry and became crazy fools. We never let each other down. Problems are easily solved. Moneys was never a problem for us. I really felt that ten years or even twenty to forty years after we will still be together.
But I was wrong. They left me when I needed them most. I never knew what really happened but I just felt secluded. I felt out place with their presence. I felt I was not involved. Not wanted! I tried to understand them but I really can feel the indifference.
I did what I thought was best that time. I stayed away from them to be able to protect myself from being hurt. They never even bothered to check on me. That was the time when I really thought that I was really right all along about what I felt for them. I was not just paranoid. They never wanted me anymore.
From that day on, I tried to build a wall between them and myself. I won't let myself become deeply related to them anymore because I don't wanna feel rejected anymore.
Now, I am coping up with all those bad memories. I am happy now. I think I have found friends along the way, along my search for all the answer to all my questions. Friends who are proven and tested. Friends who are there whenever and whatever things may come my way. Those people whom I once thought would never ever become a part of my life are now those people whom I very much trust and treasure.
